Baby,
Had a good “time” last night?
It’s the very best gift I have for the love of my life... Everything I have ever wanted to share with you. Last night was it. Each note, each word…
How amazing life truly is! As I put all this together, I get taken back in time - re-living all those crazy synchronicities and what could only be miracles along the way, small and big... Seeing these synchronicities is like stepping into a different world. How everything just kind of flow out of a story that we once read. How familiar that feeling; how catching when our glance first met. Jus like in the movie Slumdog Millionaire everything does happen for a reason. I see it now. The things celebrated in the best stories and movies are real. Again and again they show up, in unspeakable beauty and timing. Each and every time I find myself awestruck. (MV0?) The magic behind it all...
Remember Bali? The closest day you and I ever get to a wedding… The closest to a bridal gown that I have ever seen you in. You, in all white. Standing there as an angel would. My angel. It is one of my favourites. And as if it couldn't get any better, Nature herself conspires flocks of birds to fly alongside only to single out one special convoy to hold up the diamond in your earring. How beautiful is that? How in unbelievable timing of all the stars in the sky, one would echo the voice of a diva in perfect, timeless synchrony? And how fireworks dance in step to the music of Goldfrapp without missing a beat... Baby, for reasons I have no explanation many incredible moments make it into the videos. The fleeting moments are captured and in the shoebox... Baby, I can watch them a million times.
Baby, I want to tell you a secret. Not really a secret but something I have never told anyone. Probably because even I myself didn’t even quite understand what it means. Until now.
This is Curly. Curly “gave” me something very special. Go a mile with him, like Billy Crystal (synchronicity again?).
What Curly says sounds crazy; but I feel him. Seeing into another person through all the crap is a privilege to be had in life. I get what he says, for that flash in my mind’s eye I get exactly what he means.
Saw this movie many, many years ago. I didn’t even like it but this stuck with me, almost in a mindless kind of way.
Jack Palance got an Oscar for this. Quite an enigma himself in life, he is a man who comfortably traverses extremes. Real-life cowboy… So whether it is Curly or Jack speaking; it doesn’t matter. The message is through. These words ring like a bell in my mind, in my heart.
My one thing...
Feeling
Baby, I look at your eyes when you watched the videos the first time. If you ask me what is the most precious thing in the whole wide world, it’s that look. That look is the kind of stuff that is forever in my memory. Seared. I will never ever forget. The feelings inside… I know exactly what you are feeling. We lived it together. All the places, the times we spent together so far on this giant Roller Coaster.
Now I wish to ask: if it was not with you, how could I have seen these ‘miracles’? How could I have been able to find/do my one thing? How would it have been possible for me to so fully express what I have inside. For you, my one and only. One out of billions. The odds are truly astronomical. No different from the stars in the Milky Way. The wonder of it all!
If it ever was without you; tell me baby how could I have ever felt this?
This feeling is our personal frequency on the GPS. This feeling is the beacon. No matter where I land myself, I know to look for you there.
Love is real.
I told you last night at the party. Your superpower is to bring out the better in me. Looking back now I really wish I had done more... That I had Looked into your eyes deeper for just that moment longer. How I wish I had been more graceful as I try to sweep you off your feet... Next time, I dance with you xxxx. Promise.
With all my love & light. Forever.
J